Seeking Peace…

The last few weeks have unraveled for most of us with almost unbelievable dreamlike disbelief. I was glued to the press and world wide web on unfolding events in my beloved Kenya. A debilitating quagmire of uncertainty took over my being and I had to focus and regroup and most importantly pray. At some point I realized that I was praying in anger and thus was blocking the fulfillment of the very thing that I was praying for, PEACE.

Now I sit back and I’ve removed myself from overly absorbing and reading and re-reading and watching the media. This action is not because I could care less about the state of affairs, but rather because I realized that in order to assist and support and pray and give of self I had to be free of the anger that was being solicited by the masses. I am still in disbelief that ‘our leaders’ are/were willing to bring the very people that they claim to want to lead to such peril…

I am of the conviction that after all this madness settles, we (Kenyans in general) should each take time to look into our deepest of hearts and unravel our source(s) of anger, hatred or whatever negative emotions came to the surface. We need peace and reconciliation but this, in my humble opinion, can be achieved with honest dialogue and cleansing and eventually appropriate closure. There’s been violence of all kinds and we must come to terms with the apparent tribalism that is tearing the nation apart…
Rant…for some reason I am of the belief that there are those who are inherently violent or lascivious or whatever the case. They have taken advantage of the mayhem that the elections brought and destroyed property, killed, raped, not because of any political or tribal affiliation but simply because it is innate for them to act in their ‘anomalism’…this has been their scapegoat and a stop needs to be put to their madness…ok done propagating my opinion!

I am in search of inspiring, gripping peace within me and for the rest of Kenya. This not to say that all should be swept under the rug but rather that each person should be consciously deliberate about their actions and have ultimate understanding about their action or inaction so that we live in harmony.
My heart goes out to ALL who have suffered in this mayhem. I pray for continued blessings for Kenya and Kenyans at large.

These almost always make me speechless...

Absolutely GORGEOUS…who’d believe me if I said that the last scrumptious image wreaked havoc in my life in the spring. This bush, outside my building, gave me the hibby jibby sneezes, runny nose, itchy eyes, scratchy throat for over a month! One day minding my own, walking home from work I saw this gorgeous ball of pink…could it be that my arch enemy had morphed into this oh so yummy bundle…

One of my fave things to receive and or give is flowers. I almost always have a bouquet in my apartment…this year I vowed to buy myself fresh flowers every fortnight. Below are some of my fave arrangements…I don’t know if the photos capture the joy the bouquets brought to my being….

I'm Baaaaaaaaaaaack...

I've been away but i'm back...I think. The last few months have been a roller coaster ride of sorts, one that I wouldn't sentence even my worst enemy to. Memories are ebbing away now and days are looking brighter...

I finally did it...

For as long as I’ve known me, I’ve never held a said hair-do/style for over 6months, and that's pushing it. I like change and oft times, unconventional dos. For over two years now, I’ve been debating on whether I shld go bald or not and I DID IT! I look absolutely scrumptious, or so I tell myself.
I shaved my hair off...no one died and I wasn’t forced by tradition to shave. No, I did not have a heart-break and saw no other way but to loose my hair to show my deep-seeded love. I just went, spoke to barber, cut, cut some more ‘are you sure he asked?’ yes, lower I said.
I reckon my ma's gonna shit rocks when she sees me but she'll get over it. She used to yank at my locks years past. My dad was rather concerned and asked my siblings "doesn't Q want to be a lady?" HAHA, SHOCK unto them!
I’m convinced most anyone can wear the bald look…do it with confidence and refined elegance and all will be peachy. OMG it’s delicious. Showers are loads of fun. And then it’s been raining this week so my joy for playing in the rain has elevated to another level…and don’t start me on swimming….WOLOLO!!!
TEE HEE I’ve been told that my sex appeal has sky rocketed, approached another level…yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar! In my humble opinion my confidence supersedes sex appeal but what do I know. I see guys watching me with awe, ooooooogling if I may say…haha, yes I dared and uttered those words. It’s amazing the things that certain people are attracted to.
Ladies, if you are ever debating on going short/bald do it and enjoy every minute of it, tis BLISS!!!
Have a fab wknd y’all!

Time to let go...

I can’t be your friend anymore
Not like we were
Something's gotta give
We can’t ever share what we had before
You speak to me like we still belong to that world
Fortunately for me, that chapter is gone
I’d appreciate it if you understood where I am
But I understand (I think)if you refuse to let go
I will not accommodate your disrespect
Nor will I allow my being to be consumed by your childishness
One day when you grow up our friendship can resume
Until then I refuse to be your friend

The Bliss of being in Love

I feel like I've to let the world know that I AM IN LOVE. I spent time with him last week, 8 days to be precise...absolute and total BLISS!!!

I feel like I'm on some cloud in the sky looking in on my life.
There's this constant smile in my being and the pitta patta in my heart that makes me want to melt away into oblivion.

I'm sold man and in my world, goods once sold not returnable!!!

Birthday Week...yaaaaaaaaar!

Happy Birthday to me Happy Birthday to me Happy Birthday dear meeeeeeee Happy Birthday to me...REMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIX!!!!

So, yours truly has been celebrating her bday all month long and the week is finally here. I don't know how to act...
Monday...have him dj for me as I dance the evening away
Tuesday...dinner with E
Wednesday...drinks with T
Thursday...drinks/dinner with A
Friday...volunteer then I'm loose to celebrate with one and all. Catch me if you can!
Saturday...spoil self (buy gift...I think I need a new dildo)
Sunday...R-E-C-O-V-E-R!!!

All things being equal those are my plans. If they'll pan out that way...we'll see!