There’s nothing wrong with being content…

BUT, after having an amazing brain storming conversation with someone I respect, I realize and confirm that there is something wrong with (me) being content. I regard the state of being content as one being satisfied with the level of his/her life…social, economic, family, intellectual status. The aforementioned therefore making that individual, in my opinion, one who looks out for self and not the universe at large. In the ‘perfect’ universe, this can be tricky especially if you aspire to be all that you can be, while lending a hand to the next individual.

I would be somewhat displeased with myself if I was content. I think perhaps maybe I push myself too hard or criticize myself harshly. This is necessary, in my minds eye, so that I can strive to be better than mediocre. My being has to be agitated into striving for more, constantly. The sky cannot and should not be the limit…one has to soar and even tread on grounds never travelled before.

Contentment is not for me. That does not equate to me being eternally unhappy/dissatisfied, it however, for me, means that I always have something that is challenging my capabilities. My existence can not resign to simply being content…it seems like the process of giving up on life as a whole starts to set in when this contentment settles in my being.

I may be totally wrong in how I regard this loose phrase…”I am content.” I do understand that one can be content with specific areas of ones life while not looking at the whole. I am aware that perfectionism does not exist for any being, human being, might I add. In the attempt at living my life to the best of my ability, I will strive never to be content as this will mean something totally different for me than it may to the masses. I want to have more in the way I interact with others, in the way that I evolve from one phase of life to another, in the way that I contribute my abilities and capabilities to better the world....I want more out of oh so many experiences.

With those aspirations, contentment for me is not an option.